B L A C K A N D W H I T E

one day, 2 cats have an important appointment...

2 cats... black n white...
black has his own meeting plan...
white with his own blind date...
aha.... black n white is actually dating with the same 'dating friend'...

with all the arrangements... with all the plannings... settings....
the 'dating friend' felt unfair... which one to be with...
black or white....
if black.... can be seen day time....
if white... can only be seen on nite date...
... what if we have one after another...
either black first .. than white.... or both.. so that it can be balance
and fair enough for everyone...

and this is how we see... black should be at the right time to be seen...
and white also has its time to be seen ....

and do u agree on the important of black n white to be place at the right time and place...
because .... it can easily make us confuse and ... felt unfair....


what is this lor... am i dreaming...? may be this is the ending story for today....
why to black n white....

i cant change the direction of the wind, but...

i can adjust my sails to always reach my destination....

masa berharga yang diluangkan amat saya hargai...
i may not have enough sleep time...
i may not have much time to watch movies whenever i like...
i may not have spent my time for rejuvenate my body for spa...
or else...

but maybe i can find my own satisfaction with all surrounding....
may it be... my families..
may it be ...my friends...
may it be ...my own collection..
may it be... or may not be...

motivational... factors...
immunization to my spirit ... to at least deserve better...
this is why human a built with... element of emotion...

falling..... drop.....in to uuuuuu

Think about it....
think bout the worst...bad...unfair...

think of something...
think of nothing...
think of feeling
i m still falling in to you....
drop everythings behind...
in another life... in another hope...
I'd have held him close...
I'd have known his face...


but....
While waiting his steps...
I’m living.....
I’m dreaming and I’m breathing for that
While waiting just a meaning to all that
While waiting his arms....and I draw flowers on doors....

adam.... diarrhea...

huh....adam.. my son shine.. got fever n diarrhea...

maybe nk besar... maybe salah makan... maybe la.. sumer2 yg maybe..
poor him...but... morning seem so energetic...ha... sibuk nk main laptop jgk...

tgk tu...
nk panjat sofa plak.... adam ... adam...

ha... menjelang kol 6 ptg.. adam dah flat.... getting worst....
need to see paed jgk ni....
plz... get well soon adam....

Nenek endon...

5 November 2009

Nenek endon, which i use to called her mummy once i m a little girl about 20 years ago...
Today, nenek passed away..
i just dont know how to express my feeling...
at 1st it was just a 'nothing' feeling...
when i saw her in all white... look different...

i remember last time met her, was during adam's kenduri akikah in Jorak,
then, mummy says she when to Bukit Jelutong to stay with abg hanif...

but when mummy arrive... i saw she cried.. .. i knew.... nenek seem close to mummy since daddy left us years ago..
nenek never says whats when wrong to the situation, she thought us love and being loved by a family...

why... what... how... when....

again...and again.... why cant i just do this...
what is going wrong...
how am i going to solve this...
when can i start back to continue my own promises....