Here I Stand

When was the last time u felt lonely......?

Sometime it is not because of u were left alone....
not that....
u can feel that with all crowd surround you sometime..

Today i m alone... in my office on Saturday...
My husband was away in Terrengganu...

but i felt the loneliness in me since my 1st day back to office....
after the Aidilfitri break... you know why? i don't have the answer too....

Why am i suppose to complain about the work? the job ? the office?
don't ask what's happening.....

I was the one to be blame because i accept the job.. i agreed for all the condition....
Ya Allah ... please give me the strength to face all the 'human' here...

Work with peace... with passions... with respect...
I know it is not a enough to put the blame on someone else...
But try to look back at myself....
i've done my very best to cover all task...
with or without pay, with or without concern...
with or without pleasure...
but still my very best is not enough...

it is time to judge the 'fair or unfair' treatment for everyone....
of course not..

i m still here...why should i ask so much...
i m still here... how am i suppose to do next..
i m still in here.. stuck with my own decision..?

but, the fact is... i m still here waiting for the right time to go....