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B L A C K A N D W H I T E

one day, 2 cats have an important appointment...

2 cats... black n white...
black has his own meeting plan...
white with his own blind date...
aha.... black n white is actually dating with the same 'dating friend'...

with all the arrangements... with all the plannings... settings....
the 'dating friend' felt unfair... which one to be with...
black or white....
if black.... can be seen day time....
if white... can only be seen on nite date...
... what if we have one after another...
either black first .. than white.... or both.. so that it can be balance
and fair enough for everyone...

and this is how we see... black should be at the right time to be seen...
and white also has its time to be seen ....

and do u agree on the important of black n white to be place at the right time and place...
because .... it can easily make us confuse and ... felt unfair....


what is this lor... am i dreaming...? may be this is the ending story for today....
why to black n white....

i cant change the direction of the wind, but...

i can adjust my sails to always reach my destination....

masa berharga yang diluangkan amat saya hargai...
i may not have enough sleep time...
i may not have much time to watch movies whenever i like...
i may not have spent my time for rejuvenate my body for spa...
or else...

but maybe i can find my own satisfaction with all surrounding....
may it be... my families..
may it be ...my friends...
may it be ...my own collection..
may it be... or may not be...

motivational... factors...
immunization to my spirit ... to at least deserve better...
this is why human a built with... element of emotion...

falling..... drop.....in to uuuuuu

Think about it....
think bout the worst...bad...unfair...

think of something...
think of nothing...
think of feeling
i m still falling in to you....
drop everythings behind...
in another life... in another hope...
I'd have held him close...
I'd have known his face...


but....
While waiting his steps...
I’m living.....
I’m dreaming and I’m breathing for that
While waiting just a meaning to all that
While waiting his arms....and I draw flowers on doors....

adam.... diarrhea...

huh....adam.. my son shine.. got fever n diarrhea...

maybe nk besar... maybe salah makan... maybe la.. sumer2 yg maybe..
poor him...but... morning seem so energetic...ha... sibuk nk main laptop jgk...

tgk tu...
nk panjat sofa plak.... adam ... adam...

ha... menjelang kol 6 ptg.. adam dah flat.... getting worst....
need to see paed jgk ni....
plz... get well soon adam....

Nenek endon...

5 November 2009

Nenek endon, which i use to called her mummy once i m a little girl about 20 years ago...
Today, nenek passed away..
i just dont know how to express my feeling...
at 1st it was just a 'nothing' feeling...
when i saw her in all white... look different...

i remember last time met her, was during adam's kenduri akikah in Jorak,
then, mummy says she when to Bukit Jelutong to stay with abg hanif...

but when mummy arrive... i saw she cried.. .. i knew.... nenek seem close to mummy since daddy left us years ago..
nenek never says whats when wrong to the situation, she thought us love and being loved by a family...

why... what... how... when....

again...and again.... why cant i just do this...
what is going wrong...
how am i going to solve this...
when can i start back to continue my own promises....

f....r....i....e....n.....d.....s.....

i’m selfish,

impatient and a little insecure…

i make mistakes,

i m out of control and at times hard to handle…

but.. if you cant handle me...at my worst..

then u sure as hell u dont deserve me at my best…

before i tried....

but....Thank you friend…

around the KLCC and Putra Hotel...

this is what happen tru' out my 4th - 7th October....

had a not so called celebrate my birthday at KLCC before check in @ Putra KL
than the night begin with job to be done again...

so by the event date, everything must in order, should be in order, have to be in order and many more to be in order la....



finish with event half day, when to KLCC with sheena...





and this is mine...

trying to have some 'refreshment' for my so called October baby...
trying to find my own satisfaction while still in the job...
after the sunset, i still can see my son back...
he may not knowing that he was in the Hotel for 3 nite...
but he still xploring the environment & the people there.. energetic n fun to be with...

While i m trying to be the so called photographer for the event..ahaks... can it be??
far behind the skill....but at least i tried...

basically it is just the 4th day of October 2009...

Basically it is just like any other day in a year..
it is just a day in a months...
nothing much differ.. except numbers... last year... and this year...
that is all.

it is just me myself recognize that today should be special to me...
and again why? it is just a day...

Thanks Adam... for ur smile this morning... i knew it is also just another routine for you to give me a smile every morning...
and this year i m celebrating my 28th years of living with Allah's bless as a mother to Adam...Syukur..Alhamdulillah....

it is worth remembering its your birthday inside you...
never expect any from others... because it it just a day to remember that you was born.. not others...

Happy Birthday to me.....

homemaker for the weekend...

hah.. Its saturday..
here come the homemaker for weekend job..
basuh baju.. kemas rumah... cuci toilet..
tukar cadar baru.. etc etc...

Mood Malas...and kawin2 mood...

It just turn to the 2nd day of October 2009... the 2nd day of this month which is just stated..
most of people here is waiting for the next pay day... owh... 30th....

so still waiting...

Yesterday spent dinner time at Tesco Ampang, mr Husband has a special 'mission' to help his brother there... while waiting.. nothing interest me most....

except the 'one n only orange kurung modern' i saw last week at the same place...
staring at it... quite for a 'moment'.... wishing and wondering how do i look with that most desire color.... and last...end up not to buy... due to mr husband's promise... ok la.. next time okey...
or maybe next raya?... hah... lama lagi yer...

sometimes its hard to explain our 'niat' to help and giving some ideas...
worse come to worse u will be the most hated one... once u open ur mouth..
life, marriage is a long jurney and it is not always the same with the others...
u & i may be walking along the same road, but life never promise u will be the same as u expect..

and what a world without a challenges... tears.. laughter..
just live the life...perhaps it makes us feels better...
and i m not afraid to try again n again... With Allah's bless....

to my dear brother in laws, happy wedding...
i m nothing to ur life as it begin, but will always be there for reference perhaps..
i m nothing compared to ur love one... but u r part of my life after all...
wish u all the very best in ur marriage life...

< mr husband & i already have a nice baju for ur wedding day, poor adam.... where to find purple shirt for boys....;( >

as always...

Life.... as always.. full of 'making choices' around u...
and today i woke up late, due to last nite movie..
and when i open my eyes, see my husband was enjoying the moment with adam...
so sweet... gud morning dear... as always adam never ever frustrated me with his 1st smile every morning...

and just like always... am preparing adam's food to taska, his stuff..
and then my self ready for again...to office..

and as always having breakfast with my best ever colleague at D'Maju...
with the hope another happy mood for today...

and as always...
people in office sometimes, never understand that what is more than responsibility of their jobs and function... and yet putting the 'finger' to someones else...
Good for that, but please don't keep up that 'good' work... u will be label as the worse/cursed/stupid/most hated by others...

and another part ii love working with those who can really tolerate, negotiate and easy to deal with...

waiting for time to be at 6.pm then as always i'll see adam again...

my joy..my luv..

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and adam now 6 months...

mother to muhammad adam

At my 34th Weeks of pregnancy....

Ampun dan maaf andainya...
terkasar bahasa
tersilap bicara
termarah yang tak kena
tertanya tak tentu hala
tersasul yang tak sengaja
terpukul kat mana-mana
terpekik di telinga
terpinjam harta benda
tercilok resepi sapa-sapa
ter'moody'tak semena-mena
terumpat bila-bila
termacam lagi yang sewaktu dengannya...

To all my frineds and families..
Doakan keselamatan n kesejahteraan saya menjalani saat2 kelahiran dan menempoh alam bergelar 'ibu'..

weekend@MPH

Heh.. i m not a book warm,
but recently i just 'love' this activities...

Being at MPH/BORDERS or any kind of book store..
i 'love' spend my time there..
reading the books for a mama to be like me..
the breast feeding info, healthy pregnancy, labour & birth methods.. and many more...
i can actually abstract lots of info on those kind of books in the store...
just 'love' being at the sofa.. plus the jazz or R&B music around...

as lots of picture i saw in those books...
and.. here you come baby...
u keep moving and moving and make me hard to breath sometimes...
and i don't know why when i turn to this page...
i can see u 'kick' my tummy from inside and 'show off' your feet....

His's vs Her's

Ha ..
I m now at my 3rd trimester.... 30weeks....

what worries me :
how am i setting my emotion...
how am i start to know the Bracxton hicks contraction...
how am i preparing myself in labour room..
how am i going to buy for the baby...
when to prepare all this...as my work load still as high as my office building....

huh.... feeling more confuse when i wanna buy stuff for my baby..

last Saturday,
we when to the Baby Stuff's shop in Wangsa Maju..
unfortunately i have no idea on what to buy...
it is all blue..pink..and white..
i m not very certain on my baby's gender...

so i decided to buy only this...1. Blanket, 2. shirt 3. mittens & booties
and the sales girl gave me a free sample of baby's pampers















coz she said, we are a new parent we dont know what to choose..
Yes.. the answer is right!

on last Monday, i when for a Check up at Pusat Perubatan Naluri...
the place where we wanna see our baby born....
then, for the 1st time i can see my baby's gender..
its clear.... its a boy... !!!

How excited i m ..? not to forget my husband.....
for about 6 months we r waiting for the clue at least....
now it is confirmed that we will have a new members and he is a baby boy...


hah... i know what to buy now...
i still remember how frustrated i m when i saw the cute little booties in Motherclub
in blue color...
now i know i can buy it.....