i m happy with my life but.....

Some people say it is all depend on the 'Takdir' Allah s.w.t...
some people say it is all the ' rezki' with all different people...

i know for a fact, It is so calle 'ketentuan' from the Greatest Creator Allah s.w.t
and this is why we were called ' Manusia' ..never ever had 'enough' in life..

it will be always ... 'but' here and there...

i m happy with my life to be a mama next year..
i m happy with my luvly husband and papa wanna be..
i m happy with my friends... around... supporting and caring..

but i m not so happy with my work life...
i m not happy with how i have to face my ' office environment'
too desperate to seek for fairness...
too desperate to see people respecting each human being...
too desperate to have a value as a ' staff'....

every day's pressure seen to kill my hormone..
every day's pressure seen to distract my personal life...

what is working with passionate....when we have to absorb all the pressure on us..
being forced by abnormal desire....
being forced by non professional approaches...
being forced to finish things before being yelled...

how do i absorb this when i have to 'carry' my baby with me....

inside my womb....

heh heh...
i m so not motivated to blog all the magical things happen inside me...

and now... i m at my 26th weeks carrying my little baby with me....

since last month i m too busy attending classess for my Kursus Asas Asuhan Kanak-kanak,
then preparing all my assignment for Ujian Amali..
huh.. having 'fun' with my boss before she when off to Perth..

18th December 2008 - The Final Exam for KAAK...

and now only i can make myself 'blogging again....

owh..... the one inside my womb has started ' dancing' around.. actively....!!

during my classes...my zzzzzzz time... and during my exam...

maybe her ears is better developed and more sensitive than before.
she may now be able to hear both my voice and her farther's as we chat with each other.
she now weighs about a pound and two-thirds and measures 14 inches (from my reading)
from head to heel.

I m still 'hunting' for her 'gender' ... still no clue..Boy or girl...?
i missed my monthly appointment yesterday because of KAAK exam...
perhaps next week i can see u tru ultrasound...
mak & ayah want to 'see' u.....

on the way to be the ' mama'

As of today, i was 20weeks having my lil' baby in my tummy..
Nothing much happier than seeing the baby quickening from time to time...
tru the ultrasound seem normal and healthy...
and i can now felt the 'quickening' inside...

you r much active than mama.... huhu..
i m so happy for that..
every moment u move...

and today for the 1st time ever in my life..
i m wearing the 'motherclub' fashion to office... ;)
Now everyone seem to know my 'status'...

and papa bought us to watch for movie...Quantum Of Solace...007
i notice.. since we 'have' u in my tummy this is the 1st time we went out for movie.
he he... i knew it.. u not very keen on to the sound in the theater room..
that is why u keep kicking me from inside huh... i m so sorry dear...

i m now 'on the way' preparing myself to nursing my baby...
my 1st checklist is Breast Feeding....

women are made for men.....

woman was made from the rib of man,
She was not created from his head to top him,
not from his feet to be stepped upon,
She was made from his side to be close to him,
from beneath his arm to be protected by him,
near his heart to be loved by him...

i just loved this words...
wanna share will all women & men in this world...

Here I Stand

When was the last time u felt lonely......?

Sometime it is not because of u were left alone....
not that....
u can feel that with all crowd surround you sometime..

Today i m alone... in my office on Saturday...
My husband was away in Terrengganu...

but i felt the loneliness in me since my 1st day back to office....
after the Aidilfitri break... you know why? i don't have the answer too....

Why am i suppose to complain about the work? the job ? the office?
don't ask what's happening.....

I was the one to be blame because i accept the job.. i agreed for all the condition....
Ya Allah ... please give me the strength to face all the 'human' here...

Work with peace... with passions... with respect...
I know it is not a enough to put the blame on someone else...
But try to look back at myself....
i've done my very best to cover all task...
with or without pay, with or without concern...
with or without pleasure...
but still my very best is not enough...

it is time to judge the 'fair or unfair' treatment for everyone....
of course not..

i m still here...why should i ask so much...
i m still here... how am i suppose to do next..
i m still in here.. stuck with my own decision..?

but, the fact is... i m still here waiting for the right time to go....

I'm Glad for everything I am...

Wowee!!!!!

I'm now nearly made it through the first trimester!
My baby is nearly 3.9mm and has already developed their own unique set of finger prints.
As for me, I'm proud to present to the world that I've made it through the first trimester...

I'm probably started to notice that it's really getting time to do some maternity clothes shopping eh?

2008.08.28

i just love the date of today...
28 of August 2008...

10 Secret.....syh...

Ten Secrets to be a Better Person


The first secret - the power of thought.

Love begins with our thoughts. We become what we think about.
Loving thoughts create loving experiences and loving relationships.
Affirmations can change our beliefs and thoughts about others and ourselves. If we want to love someone, we need to consider his or
her needs and desires. Thinking about your ideal partner will help
you recognize her when you meet her.

The second secret - the power of respect.

You cannot love anyone or anything unless you first respect them. The first person you need to respect is yourself. To begin to gain self-respect, ask yourself. What do I respect about myself? To gain respect for others, even those you may dislike, ask yourself. What do I respect about them?

The third secret - the power of giving.

If you want to receive love, all you have to do is give it! The more
love you give, the more you will receive. To love is to give of
yourself, freely and unconditionally. Practice random acts of kindness. Before committing to a relationship ask not what the other person will be able to give to you, but rather what will you be able to give them. The secret formula of a happy, lifelong, loving relationship is to always focus on what you can give instead of what you can take.

The fourth secret - the power of friendship.

To find a true love, you must first find a true friend. Love does not consist of gazing into each other's eyes, but rather looking outward together in the same direction. To love someone completely you must love him or her for who they are and not what they look like.

Friendship is the soil through which love's seeds grow. If you want to bring love into a relationship, you must first bring friendship.

The fifth secret - the power of touch.

Touch is one of the most powerful expressions of love, breaking down
barriers and bonding relationships. Touch changes our physical and
emotional states and makes us more receptive to love.

The sixth secret - the power of letting go.

If you love something, let it free. If it comes back to you, it's yours, if it doesn't, it never was. Even in a loving relationship, people need their own space. If we want to learn to love, we must first learn to forgive and let go of past hurts and grievances. Love means letting go of our fears, prejudices, egos and conditions. Today I let go of all my fears, the past has no power over me - today is the beginning of a new life.



The seventh secret - the power of communication.

When we learn to communicate openly and honestly, life changes. To love someone is to communicate with them. Let the people you love know that you love them and appreciate them. Never be afraid to say those three magic words: I Love You. Never let an opportunity pass to praise someone. Always leave someone you love with a loving word - it could be the last time you see him or her. If you were about to die but could make telephone calls to the people you loved, who would you call, what would you say and...why are you waiting?

The eighth secret - the power of commitment.

If you want to have love in abundance, you must be committed to it, and that commitment will be reflected in your thoughts and actions. Commitment is the true test of love. If you want to have loving relationships, you must be committed to loving relationships. When you are committed to someone or something, quitting is never an option. Commitment distinguishes a fragile relationship from a strong one.

The ninth secret - the power of passion.

Passion ignites love and keeps it alive. Lasting passion does not come through physical attraction alone; it Comes from deep commitment, enthusiasm, interest and excitement. Passion can be recreated by recreating past experiences. When you felt passionate spontaneity and surprises produce passion. The Essence of love and happiness are the same; all we need to do is to live each day with passion.

The tenth secret - the power of trust.

Trust is essential in all loving relationships. Without it one person becomes suspicious, anxious and fearful and the other person feels trapped and emotionally suffocated. You cannot love someone completely unless you trust him or her completely. Act as if your relationship with the person you love will never end. One of the ways you can tell whether a person is right for you is to ask yourself. Do I trust them completely and unreservedly? If the answer is no, think carefully before making a commitment.

longed enough to left this blog empty...with out any entry

I have so many reason to state why it is be left over a year..
but now i still wanna continue ..

perhaps i can share half of my ..............in here..